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This is where I document my journey and share my thoughts. Join me as I grow and reflect on life's experiences. I'm glad you're here to be a part of my story.

Childhood responsibilities

When my daughter passed away in 2017, my entire routine fell apart. I stopped working out, abandoned my mornings at the gym, and let go of the habits that once kept me grounded. Staying healthy and maintaining a fitness routine had always been important to me, not just for how I looked but for how it made me feel inside. The loss shook me, and with that came the unraveling of a lifestyle I’d spent years building. Unfortunately, neglecting my health didn’t just dampen my spirit—it also came with serious repercussions. Over time, I developed various medical issues: an ulcer, asthma, and bouts of persistent body pain that made even small tasks challenging.Looking back, I’ve come to realize just how critical it is to prioritize one's health, no matter the circumstances. When you take care of your body, you’re not only preserving your physical well-being but also maintaining a sense of control and stability in life. Losing that connection with my health made me feel disconnected, not only from my routine but from myself. Staying active and healthy isn’t just about physical appearance—it’s about building a foundation for a balanced, resilient life. Ignoring that aspect led to problems I could have avoided, and those hardships became a sobering lesson about how crucial self-care is, especially when life feels overwhelming.

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When my daughter passed away in 2017, my entire routine fell apart. I stopped working out, abandoned my mornings at the gym, and let go of the habits that once kept me grounded. Staying healthy and maintaining a fitness routine had always been important to me, not just for how I looked but for how it made me feel inside. The loss shook me, and with that came the unraveling of a lifestyle I’d spent years building. Unfortunately, neglecting my health didn’t just dampen my spirit—it also came with serious repercussions. Over time, I developed various medical issues: an ulcer, asthma, and bouts of persistent body pain that made even small tasks challenging. Looking back, I’ve come to realize just how critical it is to prioritize one's health, no matter the circumstances. When you take care of your body, you’re not only preserving your physical well-being but also maintaining a sense of control and stability in life. Losing that connection with my health made me feel disconnected, not only from my routine but from myself. Staying active and healthy isn’t just about physical appearance—it’s about building a foundation for a balanced, resilient life. Ignoring that aspect led to problems I could have avoided, and those hardships became a sobering lesson about how crucial self-care is, especially when life feels overwhelming.

Happy birthday in heaven

Twenty-nine years ago, I brought my child into this world. I still vividly recall the moment, nine months before their birth, when we discovered we were expecting. My ex-husband’s hazel-green eyes lit up with such joy that no words were needed—I understood everything in that silent, shared happiness. We spent 20 years together navigating life’s highs and lows, and though the last year and a half had been the darkest chapter, a part of me feels at peace knowing they are no longer struggling alongside life’s challenges. Yet, my heart broke in ways that can never truly heal, and their absence changed my world forever.It was always the three of us against the world, but this time of year is especially hard. For 29 years, even after our divorce, we continued coming together as a family during the holidays. My daughter adored this season—her birthday, Thanksgiving, and Christmas were her most cherished times of the year. I remember how she loved the decorations, the glowing Christmas lights, the family meals, and the gatherings that brought both sets of grandparents together under one roof. Moving forward without her has been the most difficult journey I have ever faced, but I know I must keep going because I am still here.To my beloved child, happiest birthday in heaven. I find comfort imagining you being celebrated up there, surrounded by so much love, alongside your dad, grandma, and grandpa. I love you always.